For those of you that knew me a few years ago...I'm sure this is a big surprise. I was one of those people that was SURE I didn't want to have any kids. Really sure....

Or so I thought...I guess life just started happening. I started not having so many deadlines and finish lines around the corner (undergrad, vet school, internship, get a job, move, etc...) and life just started slowing down and falling into place.

Then I reached a point where the days were turning into weeks, the weeks into months and I thought to myself, "Is this it? This is it for the next 50 years?" And so I suppose the natural sequence of events found their way to me....a little late in life but now I'm embracing the path towards pregnancy...

....even though it has not been embracing me.
Here's my journey.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

So let's catch up now, shall we?

I figure it's time for an update!  I've told a few new people about this blog and it hasn't been updated in over a month so that's not great! 

We left off after September ended up being the big fat negative, which led us into October and the "timing" issues.


Over the "key week" in October for the necessary Dr's visits, ultrasounds, injections and IUI, I was in San Antonio for my first week long session of veterinary acupuncture training so I was unable to do the whole course of fertility treatments that I had done in September.  Randy came over to visit in San Antonio but I had NO idea how absolutely exhausted I would be each day after lecture/labs so it was a rather boring visit for Randy!


I had grand hopes that "not being worried" about the whole fertility/getting pregnant thing last month would have that wonderful "it'll happen when you stop thinking about it" effect that so many people talk about, but alas, despite being 5 days late, that pregnancy test was negative!  I have figured out my kiss of doom is to take a pregnancy test for inevitably the next day will come the "proof" of the negativity! :-)



I was worried that this month was going to have the same "scheduling issues" as last month as I am in San Antonio again for the second week of acupuncture class, but due to being "late" last month actually helped out with the scheduling this month and being back town for the necessary appointments.  In fact it couldn't have been timed more perfectly...I get back to Houston tomorrow after being on my fertility meds the last week and go in for my follicle scan ultrasound on Monday and have IUI scheduled for Wednesday.  So between being out of town, the weekend, and Thanksgiving, things lined up nicely...Maybe everything will continue to be aligned nicely and it'll be the magic month :-)





This month I have really felt the effects of the fertilty meds I'm on.  I have been on an uncontrollable emotional roller coaster!  Yesterday I kept feeling this overwhelming sadness and I just "needed" to cry.  Good lord....who knew that 20/20 could be that sad?!?!   Luckily the emotions are relatively fleeting and I'm feeling better today!




Everyone have a great Thanksgiving, be thankful for what you have in life.
Maybe I'll have a little more to be thankful for after this month... We'll see!!!