For those of you that knew me a few years ago...I'm sure this is a big surprise. I was one of those people that was SURE I didn't want to have any kids. Really sure....

Or so I thought...I guess life just started happening. I started not having so many deadlines and finish lines around the corner (undergrad, vet school, internship, get a job, move, etc...) and life just started slowing down and falling into place.

Then I reached a point where the days were turning into weeks, the weeks into months and I thought to myself, "Is this it? This is it for the next 50 years?" And so I suppose the natural sequence of events found their way to me....a little late in life but now I'm embracing the path towards pregnancy...

....even though it has not been embracing me.
Here's my journey.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Pity Party of One...Your table is now ready

Well, as only Mother Nature could deliver the news, thus it was delivered.  
I tested on Wednesday (after what we now know was Mexican food induced nausea:)


I tested on Sunday, because, well it was Sunday and things shoulda been happening:


(Sorry for the blurriness, was taken w/ my phone...but you can get the "one line" gist of the negative-ness!)

And then as to add insult to injury, probably not 15 mins after testing on Sunday came the obvious proof.
So, while September was fun, it's back to the drawing board.  However the part that really bums me out is that I will be gone during the "important" week of October in San Antonio.

See everything for fertility is done on a specific "day" of your cycle.  The first day your period starts is Day 1 and then fertility meds start on Day 3, the ultrasound to determine if the fertility drugs are working is on Day 12, the shot to induce ovulation is given on Day 12, then the IUI (and expected ovulation) occurs on Day 14.   I am gone on cycle days 10-15 this month so that is going to make all of the above a bit difficult this month.  Not only for the obvious but because I'll also miss all my doctors appointments. 

So truthfully, I do NOT see October being a fruitful month.

I know people do this for months and months at a time and I admire them...I already feel the frustration when each month nothing has happened.  This November it will be a year of trying for us with the last 2 months being on fertility treatment.

Well, I guess this just allows me to resume my running and heavy lifting and surgery!  If I can't be preggos, at least I'll try to get skinny and be productive!!

Until next time...which I'm not sure when that'll be....

1 comment:

  1. Don't worry. It will happen when you least expect it!

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